As Inkognegro put it, I'm playing in the sandbox again (I started dating again). I'm having a minor AUGH moment. But first, a couple definitions:
Dating refers to the act of meeting and engaging in some mutually agreed upon social activity by 2+ people.
DWO (dā-tiŋ ˈwī(-ə)l ˈōld) = dating while old:: engaging in less than fun, mutually disagreed upon, cantankerous, negative and wholly socially unacceptable behavior while increasing in age. See Marion Barry as a reference.
I don't know what happened. Did I miss something? I mean, I took a few months off, and I don't know what I expected - but when did every guy over 35+ suddenly get so, you know....old?
...Don't get it twisted - there's nothing wrong with aging. Getting older (I'm learning) is actually fun - there's a certain amount of respect that's given with gaining a few grey hairs that allows you to do really crazy stuff - like mumble to yourself in public, dress rather colorfully and rattle off anything that pops into your head - and it's attributed to your 'eccentricity'. How cool is that - I can walk up to someone and call them a "poopyhead", and folks will just think I'm getting senile ;)
BUT
there's nothing fun about getting "old". being "old" has connotations of being long-winded, cantankerous, lacking libido and being completely enamored/obsessed with your own ISH (ok yes, I have digestive issues - but that's a whole 'nother post). And this is what I've apparently returned to?
Case In Point #1: Anti-sexy, thy name is Amateur Shrink:: Listen, I want to get at you. Maybe have dinner, a few yucks, spend some of your hard-earned...and if you're lucky - a lil of the old heave 'ho, yanno? But unless your name is Dr. Phil (or even if it is) - if you're trying to date me, I'm not looking to lay down on your couch and be analyzed. So, the subject of my last few relationships, why I'm single, why women like me are single, what's "wrong" with me, etc...etc...ad nauseum, are probably convos you want to have with your friends. Not with me. 'Cause last time I checked - your "highly desirable" a$$ets are single too.
I met this guy, and during the first telephone conversation he started picking me apart. Asking me (what I later figured out) were leading questions - then pointing out the mistakes I've made in the past. Can we at least get to last names before you start charging me by the hour, and explaining how my relationship with my father caused my lastest ex to cheat?
Case in point #2: Guy:: the R&B group, not the noun. I know, the economy is bad. And yes I know, times are tough. But "Let's Chill"? Really?
This guy convinced me to give him my number, albeit reluctantly. His compelling argument included promises of wining and dining, having fun, exciting adventures we'd share together. Ok, maybe not - but he did ask me "out". Why was the 2nd sentence out of his mouth "so, can I come over"?!
It really cannot have come to this, can it? A "date" isn't you hopping your hot heiny on my couch to eat my food and try to get into my drawz?!!! There are plenty of ways to have an inexpensive date or a creative date without spending a ton of money. Can a sista get a walk in the park, or some handholding please? I'll take a gutter dog and a swing on the monkey bars for $2.00 Alex, without having to clean up empty beer bottles and look at my own 4 walls for the millionth time, please - thanks!
Case In Point #3: Dear Abraham (father, can you hear me?):: I'm sure most of you know this already, but I'm northern, and more than a little old fashioned. I like when men are the aggressors - that ISH screams sexy to me. Now, I have no problem going after something I want, once I've decided that I want it. But then, if you've read this blog for any length of time, and are familiar with any of the hurdles I've faced in life and what I did to get past them, you already know this.
So I reconnected with this guy I met a while ago, and we have this conversation about why I hadn't called him - my honest answer was "you never called me, so I thought you weren't interested. I prefer men to be the aggressor". Why did he spend the following 15 minutes "advising" me "that if you ever want anything in life, you have to go for it"? o_O really? Wow - I've never heard that particular phrase before - please, do expound on that one.[/endSarcasm]
Listen Dear Abby - my daddy died 25+ years ago, and frankly - I wasn't really interested in dating him. Unsolicited advice really should come with a pair of reading glasses and a cane, because old people seem to have a knack for dispensing it without listening, based on their "experiences". No disrespect, but I just wanted to have lunch, without the life-coaching session.
Let's put the fun back in dating, shall we? Let's leave the interviews behind, let's put our agenda and goals aside, let's let our hair down, and be honest and open, both about what we want, and who we are. I (can be) an overly analytical blowhard as much as the next person, but the point of dating is to get to know the other person, right? While it is a process of elimination, it's also about gaining some life experiences and knowing that every person we meet isn't just the "Right/Wrong" one, but someone that we can have fun with and enjoy.
Smile. Ask your questions while you're smiling, and see if that feels good. If it doesn't - then maybe those questions aren't appropriate in the "getting to know you" phase, hm? Joke & Laugh. If you're laughing, then maybe you won't be so worried about whether I'm ordering from the "pricey" part of the menu. And maybe I won't be inclined to scan it trying to see if they serve Surf & Turf coated in a Beluga-based sauce, to make up for how annoyed I'm getting, yanno?
Can we go back to the "Will You Go With Me - Yes, No or Maybe" days, please? I know stakes is high, but dayum - is fun completely off the table?